I've endured the taunts and teasing of TheHubster and SonnyBoy, from taking that Rx for having my teeth cleaned and two small fillings but I did survive and that front tooth is no longer jack-o-lantern like!! so thankful! Next...extraction/pulling/yanking of two wisdom teeth. last two left in this gabby mouth! I'll do more than take a white Rx pill for that! Full blown knock-out/asleep for those two barbarous feats is my chicken-hearted plan! Ugh!
Enjoying my quest for figuring out the accessing of Grace in overcoming personal weaknesses. Last night I read my patriarchal blessing and read the blessings that I long for and have not yet realized. Please don't tell me that some patriarchal blessings don't come to pass until next life. I know that but I also know the items I listed as I read through are for the now...if I can figure out how to improve myself and align myself in readiness. Much like the tumbler on a safe or a combination lock. things have to be in alignment to make it click. to have the perfect fit of desire and promised blessings actually come to pass. Will I share my list? No. It's a part of my patriarchal blessing and we don't share those sacred documents. Again...we all heard the same pre-earth plan and blessings are about our part in the plan so it's not something that others don't already have or are doing. I want my share!
My heart is still drawn to Elder Holland's address. the last talk of the Conference. Here are just a couple of thoughts he shared that have really made me think and that fit with my treasure hunt.
I am strengthened and encouraged by all of the talk but these few things are really making me think this morning. The Atonement is there as the base for individual improvement. I LOVE that we get...Credit for trying...we can improve. I'm also linking Alma to using Grace by calling out. That is what I'm needing to learn. The calling out...the summoning His strength.
Snippets of Elder Hollands talk....
“[Lucifer] knows he can’t improve, he can’t progress, that worlds without end he will never have a bright tomorrow. He is a miserable man bound by eternal limitations, and he wants you to be miserable, too. Well, don’t fall for that. With the gift of the Atonement and the strength of heaven to help us, we can improve, and the great thing about the gospel is we get credit for trying, even if we don’t always succeed.”
Remember, the Lord blesses those who want to improve, who accept the need for commandments and try to keep them, who cherish Christ-like virtues and strive to acquire them.
“If you stumble in that pursuit, so does everyone; the Savior is there to help you keep going,” he said. “If you fall, summon His strength. ... Call out like Alma, “O Jesus, … have mercy on me.”7 He will help you get back up. He will help you repent, repair, fix whatever you have to fix, and keep going. Soon enough you will have the success you seek.
My jotting notes is starting to be scattered. Notes of trying to tie the Atonement/Grace workings together to be easily understood by my mind. I need to pull them together. That is why I made that list of desired blessings from my Patriarchal blessing. I will go to temple tomorrow and pray and ponder if I'm on the right track. Hope I don't hit a dead end but just wide open rails to zip along.
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Friday, April 8, 2016
Thursday, April 7, 2016
The search...
My church membership has been such an interesting journey to me. I feel like joining brought with it an opportunity to grow and learn on so many levels...about God, about others and that includes myself.
Sometimes I feel like I am sorting through a 5 gallon bucket of Lego's, to get the object built, that I'm desiring. Desiring to either become a certain way or understand a doctrine and incorporate it in my life.
Sometimes I feel like I have all the pieces to a circular puzzle which is shaded with one muted color and no particular details outstanding and yet each an intricate necessary part of the whole.
Mostly I feel the challenges of life, and the blessings of life, and the security of life and everything of life is found right here in my Gospel membership.
Plus I always believe that we all have to learn the same thing as we were all at the meeting when The Plan was presented and accepted by each of us.
I love to learn and grow in the gospel.
All of that being said...you know that I'm on a quest and right now I'm focusing on the doctrine of Grace. I feel the need for that enabling power and am trying to figure out how to access it. I have confidence this is possible as I remember the desire I had to grow in prayer. First I had to learn to pray and then when prayers were suggested (private/family/blessing food etc. etc.) and then how to access God through prayer. I wanted to hear back...to have confidence I was heard and then to recognize answers which then led me into desire of the Holy Ghost and taking that learning journey.
It's like I learn the basics and then desire to figure out how to take full advantage of what is available...full advantage as far as where I am at any given point. When I get used to that, so to speak, at some point I want/need more.
So I never know all there is to know about anything but I know enough to enjoy what I have...until...I want/need more!
Skeletal sketch....extremely skeletal... like bare bones!
Grace is tied in with the Atonement. Perhaps it is the Atonement?
The Atonement has 2 Sections.
Section 1-Resurrection...freely given.
Section 2- Part A: gift of being able to be forgiven of sins through repentance.
Part B: an invitation of sufficient grace, sufficient enabling power, to overcome personal
weaknesses.
Section 2. Part B. that is what I want in my life. that is what I'm figuring out.
Those are just my thoughts and feelings. I won't flesh this out with what I've been reading in manuals and talks but now you know the bare bones (sorry. it just popped out!) I'm almost ready to start reading some of the books I have in a pile!!
In the meantime...mortality moves along with challenges like all are prone to. today we are celebrating a full nights sleep for the first time in a month! (it seems like a year!) I did share that Terry fell into the piano and broke 2 ribs...went to ER after the fact...lots of pain in stomach etc. etc. and well, you get the picture. lots of challenging misery but there is light at the end of this tunnel and we are thankful for that.
Thankful for the Gospel, our testimonies, and General Conference that was so grand on so many levels.
Me being brave...going to Dentist today. Yes...I have anxiety Rx to take prior to entering torture chamber. Son, will take his decrepit old Mum, who is having her teeth cleaned and 2 fillings (one for chipped tooth and then a small cavity, on a tooth that has had a root canal already so it won't hurt!) Coward of the year award...drum-roll....me!!!!
Sometimes I feel like I am sorting through a 5 gallon bucket of Lego's, to get the object built, that I'm desiring. Desiring to either become a certain way or understand a doctrine and incorporate it in my life.
Sometimes I feel like I have all the pieces to a circular puzzle which is shaded with one muted color and no particular details outstanding and yet each an intricate necessary part of the whole.
Mostly I feel the challenges of life, and the blessings of life, and the security of life and everything of life is found right here in my Gospel membership.
Plus I always believe that we all have to learn the same thing as we were all at the meeting when The Plan was presented and accepted by each of us.
I love to learn and grow in the gospel.
All of that being said...you know that I'm on a quest and right now I'm focusing on the doctrine of Grace. I feel the need for that enabling power and am trying to figure out how to access it. I have confidence this is possible as I remember the desire I had to grow in prayer. First I had to learn to pray and then when prayers were suggested (private/family/blessing food etc. etc.) and then how to access God through prayer. I wanted to hear back...to have confidence I was heard and then to recognize answers which then led me into desire of the Holy Ghost and taking that learning journey.
It's like I learn the basics and then desire to figure out how to take full advantage of what is available...full advantage as far as where I am at any given point. When I get used to that, so to speak, at some point I want/need more.
So I never know all there is to know about anything but I know enough to enjoy what I have...until...I want/need more!
Skeletal sketch....extremely skeletal... like bare bones!
Grace is tied in with the Atonement. Perhaps it is the Atonement?
The Atonement has 2 Sections.
Section 1-Resurrection...freely given.
Section 2- Part A: gift of being able to be forgiven of sins through repentance.
Part B: an invitation of sufficient grace, sufficient enabling power, to overcome personal
weaknesses.
Section 2. Part B. that is what I want in my life. that is what I'm figuring out.
Those are just my thoughts and feelings. I won't flesh this out with what I've been reading in manuals and talks but now you know the bare bones (sorry. it just popped out!) I'm almost ready to start reading some of the books I have in a pile!!
In the meantime...mortality moves along with challenges like all are prone to. today we are celebrating a full nights sleep for the first time in a month! (it seems like a year!) I did share that Terry fell into the piano and broke 2 ribs...went to ER after the fact...lots of pain in stomach etc. etc. and well, you get the picture. lots of challenging misery but there is light at the end of this tunnel and we are thankful for that.
Thankful for the Gospel, our testimonies, and General Conference that was so grand on so many levels.
Me being brave...going to Dentist today. Yes...I have anxiety Rx to take prior to entering torture chamber. Son, will take his decrepit old Mum, who is having her teeth cleaned and 2 fillings (one for chipped tooth and then a small cavity, on a tooth that has had a root canal already so it won't hurt!) Coward of the year award...drum-roll....me!!!!
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