Jeanee and Tori arrived last night! Fantastic to see them...love them...visit with them. I can't post pictures right now on my blog but hope that will be remedied soon when whatever is ailing it will be fixed.
Terry and I are gimpy and Jeanee is a whirlwind --so she decided that the porch needs a face lift and she's going to sand the deck and paint and who knows what else? She reminds me of Edward Scissorhands when she dives into projects! I'm going to control my Co-D behavior....offer no suggestions or advice on mode of operation or order of things being done, question nothing and just wallow in deep appreciation for whatever she decides to do! She has free rein!
Most likely I will be sporadic blogging so don't think I forgot or doing anything except for feeling great and enjoying family.
Guess my Documentary frenzy will take a vacation and I'll converse with family. Will anyone care about Organic or GMO's or the greening of the planet or agriculture politics or non-labeling and non-transparency or monopolies or corruption or farmers or fast foods or on and on and on, my list goes. Will any of my kiddos care? Most likely to happen?...them caring or wanting to talk about health and their Mother's take on her gimpiness? -- Ummm...I would say, with confidence, not really. And you?...want to chat about health? coming from a fattsy gal? I totally understand BUT I will say...most likely at some point I will chat on my blog and you might say...good grief!! be quiet! AND I will do that very thing. right now! I'll be quiet.
Back here off and on. Depending on the happenings with my band of adult children and grandchildren and my HubbyMan!
PS- I wish I could post the picture of the box of red salmon fillets that Jeanee brought! a freezer drawer full! Yumminess for dinner tonight!
Wednesday, July 19, 2017
Monday, July 17, 2017
Not Ready!!
Kiddos start arriving, more like straggling in, one or two at a time...this week!! Panic attack time if I was into that nervous condition. I'm co-d, ever trying to recover and constantly relapsing as true addicts do!
Usually...I'm totally ready! You know all of the stuff I do for McCall. and I love doing it. I'm a lame duck this go round! The Hubby?...he makes me look strong with his lameness. The family joke is Dad and his duct tape usage. I'm feeling like I'm taped or need to be! Masking tape/super glue/painting tape/scotch tape/duct tape/band aids. I'm falling apart at the seams it seems! Dr. tests say nothing wrong with major functions but now my leg is bum and for a couple of weeks I've been a hobbler!
And then my weight! All of that extra stuff I'm hauling around and sitting down with and sleeping with and oh, it's just so IRRITATING!! The Dr. said to lose and I'm determined to do it. I know I told you that situation already. I also said I wouldn't bother to mention what/how etc. until my photo shoot for Vogue was signed BUT I can tell you the things I'm doing in preparation to drop the fatness. Fatties are usually talking about WHAT they are going to do but seldom do it and if they start something they seldom finish it and they seldom have success. Hey, now! don't give me stink eye. I'm saying that is how I am but actually I think you are also if you've fought the lard battle for very long. Anyhow...sort of lamenting sounds from my plump lips!!
So...I bought one of those arm bracelets to count steps. To me is looks like one of those ankle bracelets for home arrest. it's not tiny and lovely. it's black and thick and heavy looking. Yep, like house arrest. It' immediately went to 20,000 steps as my goal. Rechecked my age, size etc. and has dropped it to 4800! I usually have a red flat line across the top...signalling...get up and move it!! If I don't move it then it goes black. probably saving the battery which at this rate will last a very long time. My lifetime perhaps?
I decided that I have shelves of cookbooks and need no more. I've been on every diet program known to mankind and refuse to do them. I will not go talk to a nutritionist! I will cross no one's palm with money for them going to the effort to weigh me and tell me I gained a pound or two or more. So you can see...I'm not real open minded nor do I have my arms out hoping someone will whisk me away to some FatFarm.
I really do like The Blue Zones book and I also sort of, kinda like, Knives over Forks.
I stopped watching the Food Network and it's shows and that was made easy because we decided to cancel our Direct TV. I know I can get it online etc. but I decided to give it up. What a huge sacrifice! (I hear your snickering!)
We had Roku which we'd never even turned on! A son set it up but we left it alone. Suddenly my dreary black and white world went full technicolor! A world of whatever I wanted to see and no commercials etc. etc.
So...instead of books and eating programs and all of that, I decided to watch documentaries about food. Now remember, I have that bum leg and am sitting or reclining more than I care to admit, so that allows me hours of Rokuing. I remembered how much I enjoyed FedUp and decided to see if their were other food documentaries. Not recipes but shows about the industry and the politics and the corruption etc. etc.
Believe me....there are oodles of them. I've been shocked and stunned at some of the things I've watched. Now this is super scary... okay. I have to preface this super scary story with telling you that I like mysteries but I only like the solving of them. I don't like to watch the violence. that is my preface. I cover my eyes when violence takes place. I loved Agatha Christie's Murder on the Orient Express but I had to cower and cover my eyes...anyhow I'm watching a documentary and they showed a slaughter house for a brief bit. Actually it appeared brief to me because I covered my eyes! it was actually long.
Anyhow I've seen bits and pieces of mayhem involving cattle and chickens and pigs and I soon knew when they were going to start the killing spree and I would stop the show. I hollered to Terry (who couldn't hear me anyhow) oh, my gosh Terry!!! I may end up a vegetarian!! NOOOOOOO!!! They can be so obnoxious!
I've watched so many shows about corruption and political clout in the food industry... I'm needing to make some changes.
What? Time will tell.
Lots of shows about Corn Syrup and the negative aspects of it. So I decide to chill some canned fruit for smoothies for us. One can had corn syrup and one had sugar. I determined that I would not eat the corn syrup. I asked Hubby...there is corn syrup in the apricots. does that bother you? I'm not going to eat them. He said...it doesn't bother me. it's fine. I said...okay. I'll eat the peaches with sugar. Corn syrup is like poison. He said...okay. fine with me.
So there you go. I'm poisoning my Honey and feeling sad over animals being murdered.
I have nothing ready for my precious children. True they are all adults but in my mind...if I could be a darling Norman Rockwell Mother/Grandmother type with my hair in a bun, sturdy brown shoes and a flour sack apron covering my homemade dress- carrying out a tray laden with a scrumptious meal or a pie and smiling brightly...wouldn't they be happy?
We will never see that scene played out.
Sigh.
Usually...I'm totally ready! You know all of the stuff I do for McCall. and I love doing it. I'm a lame duck this go round! The Hubby?...he makes me look strong with his lameness. The family joke is Dad and his duct tape usage. I'm feeling like I'm taped or need to be! Masking tape/super glue/painting tape/scotch tape/duct tape/band aids. I'm falling apart at the seams it seems! Dr. tests say nothing wrong with major functions but now my leg is bum and for a couple of weeks I've been a hobbler!
And then my weight! All of that extra stuff I'm hauling around and sitting down with and sleeping with and oh, it's just so IRRITATING!! The Dr. said to lose and I'm determined to do it. I know I told you that situation already. I also said I wouldn't bother to mention what/how etc. until my photo shoot for Vogue was signed BUT I can tell you the things I'm doing in preparation to drop the fatness. Fatties are usually talking about WHAT they are going to do but seldom do it and if they start something they seldom finish it and they seldom have success. Hey, now! don't give me stink eye. I'm saying that is how I am but actually I think you are also if you've fought the lard battle for very long. Anyhow...sort of lamenting sounds from my plump lips!!
So...I bought one of those arm bracelets to count steps. To me is looks like one of those ankle bracelets for home arrest. it's not tiny and lovely. it's black and thick and heavy looking. Yep, like house arrest. It' immediately went to 20,000 steps as my goal. Rechecked my age, size etc. and has dropped it to 4800! I usually have a red flat line across the top...signalling...get up and move it!! If I don't move it then it goes black. probably saving the battery which at this rate will last a very long time. My lifetime perhaps?
I decided that I have shelves of cookbooks and need no more. I've been on every diet program known to mankind and refuse to do them. I will not go talk to a nutritionist! I will cross no one's palm with money for them going to the effort to weigh me and tell me I gained a pound or two or more. So you can see...I'm not real open minded nor do I have my arms out hoping someone will whisk me away to some FatFarm.
I really do like The Blue Zones book and I also sort of, kinda like, Knives over Forks.
I stopped watching the Food Network and it's shows and that was made easy because we decided to cancel our Direct TV. I know I can get it online etc. but I decided to give it up. What a huge sacrifice! (I hear your snickering!)
We had Roku which we'd never even turned on! A son set it up but we left it alone. Suddenly my dreary black and white world went full technicolor! A world of whatever I wanted to see and no commercials etc. etc.
So...instead of books and eating programs and all of that, I decided to watch documentaries about food. Now remember, I have that bum leg and am sitting or reclining more than I care to admit, so that allows me hours of Rokuing. I remembered how much I enjoyed FedUp and decided to see if their were other food documentaries. Not recipes but shows about the industry and the politics and the corruption etc. etc.
Believe me....there are oodles of them. I've been shocked and stunned at some of the things I've watched. Now this is super scary... okay. I have to preface this super scary story with telling you that I like mysteries but I only like the solving of them. I don't like to watch the violence. that is my preface. I cover my eyes when violence takes place. I loved Agatha Christie's Murder on the Orient Express but I had to cower and cover my eyes...anyhow I'm watching a documentary and they showed a slaughter house for a brief bit. Actually it appeared brief to me because I covered my eyes! it was actually long.
Anyhow I've seen bits and pieces of mayhem involving cattle and chickens and pigs and I soon knew when they were going to start the killing spree and I would stop the show. I hollered to Terry (who couldn't hear me anyhow) oh, my gosh Terry!!! I may end up a vegetarian!! NOOOOOOO!!! They can be so obnoxious!
I've watched so many shows about corruption and political clout in the food industry... I'm needing to make some changes.
What? Time will tell.
Lots of shows about Corn Syrup and the negative aspects of it. So I decide to chill some canned fruit for smoothies for us. One can had corn syrup and one had sugar. I determined that I would not eat the corn syrup. I asked Hubby...there is corn syrup in the apricots. does that bother you? I'm not going to eat them. He said...it doesn't bother me. it's fine. I said...okay. I'll eat the peaches with sugar. Corn syrup is like poison. He said...okay. fine with me.
So there you go. I'm poisoning my Honey and feeling sad over animals being murdered.
I have nothing ready for my precious children. True they are all adults but in my mind...if I could be a darling Norman Rockwell Mother/Grandmother type with my hair in a bun, sturdy brown shoes and a flour sack apron covering my homemade dress- carrying out a tray laden with a scrumptious meal or a pie and smiling brightly...wouldn't they be happy?
We will never see that scene played out.
Sigh.
Wednesday, July 12, 2017
blank filled in!
This is just wonderful! It would make a great FHE or YW lesson. It made The Plan so much clearer and so much more complete when he filled in the one blank!
here it is!!! Enjoy!!
here it is!!! Enjoy!!
Monday, July 10, 2017
Earrings
Who'd of thunk it??? My right ear lobe has never healed and the left one is sore to touch!! You know what courage it took for me to get my ears pierced (again! after several years!). It makes me feel sad as I was looking forward to wearing earrings all the time. I took the beautiful little pearls out yesterday and am thinking...it's not going to happen after all. Trying to look better and take better care of my appearance so it's a bit sad BUT compared to the reality of life challenges?...this is absolutely nothing! I'm sure I can find some of those ear pinching old clip-on earrings and wear them!
Pressure is mounting with this Family get-together. We are now going to our Grandson's new home in Tri-Cities. As the Mom, and still having total co-dependent behavior at times like these, I'm wanting to do it all and my adult super-capable daughter has taken the reins and in my mind we are sort of word-battling and each saying the same word...NO!! I'm the gatherer and looking forward to that task for our Christmas party gifts. The list is becoming smaller and smaller of promised attendees... with jobs interfering!
I still think I need to help Terry into car and whisk him off on a road trip to visit our Utah/Nevada sons! Whisking would be necessary as he is not on the same page as me!
There are lots of family gatherings going on around here. A girl that was my Laurel years ago is visiting her parents. I missed Church on Sunday and didn't get to see her. She has 11 children and they are going to the Temple to have the last 3 children sealed to them. I showed a picture of her before. Anyhow I got invited to go to the Temple and witness the sealing but our Temple is so small and their family is huge so today I volunteered to step aside. won't that be a bit of heaven on earth?
sigh. I can hardly wait to see pictures!!!
So much to do and so little oomph to do it!
Pressure is mounting with this Family get-together. We are now going to our Grandson's new home in Tri-Cities. As the Mom, and still having total co-dependent behavior at times like these, I'm wanting to do it all and my adult super-capable daughter has taken the reins and in my mind we are sort of word-battling and each saying the same word...NO!! I'm the gatherer and looking forward to that task for our Christmas party gifts. The list is becoming smaller and smaller of promised attendees... with jobs interfering!
I still think I need to help Terry into car and whisk him off on a road trip to visit our Utah/Nevada sons! Whisking would be necessary as he is not on the same page as me!
There are lots of family gatherings going on around here. A girl that was my Laurel years ago is visiting her parents. I missed Church on Sunday and didn't get to see her. She has 11 children and they are going to the Temple to have the last 3 children sealed to them. I showed a picture of her before. Anyhow I got invited to go to the Temple and witness the sealing but our Temple is so small and their family is huge so today I volunteered to step aside. won't that be a bit of heaven on earth?
sigh. I can hardly wait to see pictures!!!
So much to do and so little oomph to do it!
Saturday, July 8, 2017
Straightway Sacrifice
For those of you long time readers...you know that one of the foundational stones, of my personal testimony, are Apostles. I have been so overwhelmingly impressed with their willingness to give up/walk away straightway from every dream/ambition/accomplishment/choice in their personal lives without hesitation. Straightway....living/giving the rest of their life in service of Jesus Christ...to death!
No family meeting/council/discussion...no extended time to set affairs in order. Hastily! Quickly! Now! Usually the time frame from assignment is...called Friday or Saturday of General Conference and sustained at next session! No advance notice to children or grandchildren.
No time to discuss with wife if she is okay with this.
Intelligent successful fine men with fine wives and families of fine people....no longer planning extended traveling during retirement or the likes. Every minute will be assigned and planned...endless airports and chapels and stake centers and other arenas to hold all of us who believe in what they will say. (perhaps they are blessed with no jet-lag?)
At least now they have their wives, and when their health allows travel with them. Nowadays they also speak sometimes.
When Elder Bednar was called...he thought it would be releasing him as President of BYU-I and was shocked when the apostleship calling was issued. He was to meet his wife at the JSMB and then they were going to dinner. He whispered in her ear what had happened and they went to dinner there. He told her they could not even tell their 3 sons. She wanted to and said they wouldn't tell anyone! Could not do that. He was told to have a 10 minute talk ready for the Sunday session next day. not 9 minutes or 11 minutes but 10 minutes!
When President Kimball was called he was living in Arizona. He was the first Apostle called outside of Utah! It was a big deal. The others were used to Utah even if they had to move closer to SLC.
And then comes...Elder Uchtdortf!! from Germany! My heart went out to him, as all the others, with all that he would sacrifice to serve. He recently mentioned that sacrifice here
I pray for these men and their families. Someone has to step up to the plate and keep that line of Heavenly communication open, with Prophets/Seers/Revelators in place, for the benefit of the restoration of the Gospel and that includes my life being blessed. As they speak, the Spirit witnesses to me, not only the validity of their calling but the truthfulness of the Church.
Each year I share with my Laurels how this belief/support of living Apostles, is a foundation stone of my personal testimony. And ...every so often I just have to share my feelings with you. Like today...I just did!
Below...how I gained my testimony/conviction and feelings I have....
Greatest Challenge 2012 here
not a book...a pamphlet 2014 here
No family meeting/council/discussion...no extended time to set affairs in order. Hastily! Quickly! Now! Usually the time frame from assignment is...called Friday or Saturday of General Conference and sustained at next session! No advance notice to children or grandchildren.
No time to discuss with wife if she is okay with this.
Intelligent successful fine men with fine wives and families of fine people....no longer planning extended traveling during retirement or the likes. Every minute will be assigned and planned...endless airports and chapels and stake centers and other arenas to hold all of us who believe in what they will say. (perhaps they are blessed with no jet-lag?)
At least now they have their wives, and when their health allows travel with them. Nowadays they also speak sometimes.
When Elder Bednar was called...he thought it would be releasing him as President of BYU-I and was shocked when the apostleship calling was issued. He was to meet his wife at the JSMB and then they were going to dinner. He whispered in her ear what had happened and they went to dinner there. He told her they could not even tell their 3 sons. She wanted to and said they wouldn't tell anyone! Could not do that. He was told to have a 10 minute talk ready for the Sunday session next day. not 9 minutes or 11 minutes but 10 minutes!
When President Kimball was called he was living in Arizona. He was the first Apostle called outside of Utah! It was a big deal. The others were used to Utah even if they had to move closer to SLC.
And then comes...Elder Uchtdortf!! from Germany! My heart went out to him, as all the others, with all that he would sacrifice to serve. He recently mentioned that sacrifice here
I pray for these men and their families. Someone has to step up to the plate and keep that line of Heavenly communication open, with Prophets/Seers/Revelators in place, for the benefit of the restoration of the Gospel and that includes my life being blessed. As they speak, the Spirit witnesses to me, not only the validity of their calling but the truthfulness of the Church.
Each year I share with my Laurels how this belief/support of living Apostles, is a foundation stone of my personal testimony. And ...every so often I just have to share my feelings with you. Like today...I just did!
Below...how I gained my testimony/conviction and feelings I have....
Greatest Challenge 2012 here
not a book...a pamphlet 2014 here
Wednesday, July 5, 2017
Remember these???...
Old hymns. Did you ever sing any of these?
This is fun to look at!
Songs we don't sing in Church anymore.... here
This is fun to look at!
Songs we don't sing in Church anymore.... here
Tuesday, July 4, 2017
Freedom!
Happy 4th of July!! I love our country and being an American and flying the flag! I hung our flag as soon as I got up! Today I am missing my sister and her calling and asking me what I'm wearing and if I have on the flag pin she gave me with it's sparkly jewels and wanting to know what I'm cooking...then following the questions and my less than satisfying answers...she would tell me what to cook and what to wear etc. etc.
She would not be happy with my doings today. I'm enjoying the freedom of freedom and doing nothing!! I will go see if I can find that pin and wear it in her honor. Cooking?...I don't want to cook today. Fireworks?...I'll listen and watch neighbors and see the city fireworks from my front yard. Memories?...The Hubster and I already relived past celebrations and marveled again at the power of reliving enjoyable events.
Today?...Terry will recover from a sleepless night by sleeping off and on. Me?...I'm going to sit outside and read a book until it's to hot and then?...I'll sit inside and read my Agatha Christie book of mysteries until I decide I don't want to read anymore. I bequeath to myself a day of utter freedom to do as I please and reading made the top of the list!
Here are two past blogs that I hope you enjoy. they are about the 4th of July. of course!! here and here
She would not be happy with my doings today. I'm enjoying the freedom of freedom and doing nothing!! I will go see if I can find that pin and wear it in her honor. Cooking?...I don't want to cook today. Fireworks?...I'll listen and watch neighbors and see the city fireworks from my front yard. Memories?...The Hubster and I already relived past celebrations and marveled again at the power of reliving enjoyable events.
Today?...Terry will recover from a sleepless night by sleeping off and on. Me?...I'm going to sit outside and read a book until it's to hot and then?...I'll sit inside and read my Agatha Christie book of mysteries until I decide I don't want to read anymore. I bequeath to myself a day of utter freedom to do as I please and reading made the top of the list!
Here are two past blogs that I hope you enjoy. they are about the 4th of July. of course!! here and here
Monday, July 3, 2017
Blue Skies!
My Blue-Black funky time mood has slowly lifted to SummerBlue Sky! Nothing feels better than to have moved through the fog!! If feelings could be described food-wise?....this feeling is DeliciouslyScrumptious. Don't you love to feel good? Feeling good on all 4 levels...physical and spiritual and emotional and social...BLISS!!! Usually I seem to have one tire, or more, losing air and going flat and I'm having a bumpy ride. But right now I am taking on deep breath air and oh, my...heavenly.
Kudos to friends that understand and take time to care-- by listening without judgment or drowning me with unasked for solutions. Just loving. Listening with unconditional love and voicing confidence in my ability to figure out what I need to do- to balance out what is now MyLife.
So refreshing and just makes a person feel so loved!!
My woes?- figuring out my own health issues...swollen legs amongst other things...taking tests etc/ figuring out how to best help Terry/ figuring out how to manage everything because if it's to be it's up to me/stewing over 2 sons health issues and knowing, but on some level not accepting, I can't do one thing to make their challenges go away.
I'm experiencing the woes of mortality and no worse than others {and for the most part- oh, so much better than most!} Just mortal life and I sort of decided to stop and have a PityParty! My woes-um, rather loathsome emotions, have been banished. Most likely they, at some point, unbidden/unwelcome, will return but for now the sea of my life has calmed down. Rather smooth sailing for now!
I'm experiencing the woes of mortality and no worse than others {and for the most part- oh, so much better than most!} Just mortal life and I sort of decided to stop and have a PityParty! My woes-um, rather loathsome emotions, have been banished. Most likely they, at some point, unbidden/unwelcome, will return but for now the sea of my life has calmed down. Rather smooth sailing for now!
In reliving the experience of unloading my woes, I thought of these great scriptures and the importance of our conversations and how life reviving words of caring compassion can be.
Proverbs:
15:28 The heart of the righteous astudieth to banswer...
16:24 Pleasant words are as an honeycomb, sweet to the soul, and health to the bones.
25:11 A aword fitly spoken is like apples of gold in pictures of silver.
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I have these old song lyrics tumbling around inside.... Blue Skies by Irving Berlin
I was blue, just as blue as I could be
Ev'ry day was a cloudy day for me
Then good luck came a-knocking at my door
Skies were gray but they're not gray anymore
Blue skies
Smiling at me
Nothing but blue skies
Do I see
BluebirdsSinging a song
Nothing but bluebirds
All day long
Never saw the sun shining so bright
Never saw things going so right
Noticing the days hurrying by
When you're in love, my how they fly
Blue days
All of them gone
Nothing but blue skies
From now on
I should care if the wind blows east or west
I should fret if the worst looks like the best
I should mind if they say it can't be true
I should smile, that's exactly what I do
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